Rain Rain, Go Away

Here it is Saturday afternoon, just me and the girls. The house is clean, laundry is in the dryer and I could totally go for a nap right about now.

Some friends of mine (Also a carrier that hauls for Reich) sent Adalyn this super cute outfit right after she was born. Needless to say, I think she looks pretty awesome in it. Thanks Wayne & Joy!

Introducing my lil biker chick :)

So Tired...

The title explains it all. I am tired. Tired of the days flying by so fast, tired of tossing and turning at night, tired of worrying all the time, and most of all tired of being taken for granted. Point blank. End of Story.

Almost Wednesday?

Apparently I dont blog enough for some people so I guess I'll to get to this :)

Now that it has finally been announced at work, I can tell everyone that I got a promotion. I am super excited about it and cant wait to settle in the new position. Change can be a good thing, right? Well, lets hope so because I have my fingers crossed.

Something completely random that I feel I have to share is my new favorite old school CD. Well my old school isnt the same to alot of people, but Im taking it back to like 7th grade (97,98?)...Usher "My Way". I was straight jamming out running errands tonite. Anywho!

Adalyn feels so bad, bless her heart. I am so over this teething thing and she only has 1 tooth. Ally on the other hand...if I hear Hannah Montana one more time, Im gonna scream. Ally: "Mommy, am I pretty like Hannah Montana" Me: "No Baby, you're prettier than Hannah Montana." Ally: "Oh, well I know that. Duh Mommy." Seriously, can my child be any more vain? I love it :)

Im thinking about doing something drastic with my hair. Cut? Color? Both? Im feeling fun, so I think I may do both. Like a cool sleek cut with some highlights on top and dark underneath. Either way, I want something different. More change...

Well its time to get ready for bed. This week is flying by. Maybe its because I actually enjoy myself at work? You never know...

Sunday Blahs

You would think since I have had a 3 day weekend, things would be done at my house and I could just hang out and do nothing. Well darlin, you are so wrong. My plans were to get up this morning and the girls and I were going to go to church. My plans were suddenly cancelled when Adalyn cried for 45 solid minutes just gnawing on her poor thumb. I get us all dressed because like it or not, we had to go to Wal-Mart today to pick up a few things. We walk outside and get hit with a sheet of humidity that fogs up my glasses and within just a few minutes I'm pretty sure my jeans were stuck to me. I finally get the kids loaded up and buckled and we head out. While out, I decided that my car really needed to be washed so we went through the car wash that Ally loves. Well guess who didn't? You guessed it; Adalyn. Every time the spin brush thingy would pass by her window, she would scream like someone took her food away. That was the last straw for her so we came on home. I know that may not sound to adventurous to you guys, but I have the 2 coolest kids on the block and every day is an adventure in this house.

Even though I have been through alot these past few years, I have sat back today and thought about everything I am thankful for. I have a wonderful family, awesome friends, a good job, and I catch myself taking these things for granted. Have you ever had somebody that you could trust with anything? I was asked that question the other day and it made me think about how lucky I am to have Heather in my life. We may go weeks without talking because we get caught up in everyday life, but when I need her, she is there within a blink of an eye. She is the only girl that I have ever met that we could scream at each other until we are blue in the face and then just laugh about it. If you dont have her as a friend, you are truely missing out because let me just tell you, her ADD tail is one of a kind. :) Love you girl!

Well anyways, instead of just rambling, I guess I need to get busy doing the things that I should have been doing yesterday (ie: laundry). Much love!

First Tooth

Guess what we found today while eating breakfast?!?! Oh yes, Ms. Ady finally has her first tooth. :)

Happy 2nd Birthday Ava

My Dearest Ava,

Today we celebrate here on Earth while you are rejoicing in Heaven. Its so hard to believe that you would be 2 years old. You and your sisters would be getting into so much trouble together, but Im sure that you all would be the best of friends. I sit back and imagine you running around the house and how sweet it would be to hear you tell me goodnite and you love me. I miss you so much and even though I know you are safe and in good hands, I would have you here in a heartbeat. I know that is selfish of me, but even if I could just have a day. A single day to just hold you and remind you just how much I love you and how much I wanted you to have the perfect life here with me. The life where I make the hurt go away by a single kiss on a "boo boo" and where your Daddy is your hero. No matter what, know that you will always have a piece of my heart with you. Happy Birthday Sweetheart. I love and miss you tons. Fly high baby girl.

XOXO,
Mommy

2 Years Ago Today

Its so hard to keep a smile on my face today. Today, 2 years ago, I was in a cold doctors office staring at my unborn daughter's heart not beating. All alone not knowing what was going to happen next, I sat waiting for my husband to arrive to give him the news. It felt as if I had failed. What did I do that was so wrong that God would take my precious child away from me? I would never see my baby open her eyes or hear her tell me that she loved me. Those are the things that I longed for after her passing. Even though much of that evening was such a blur, I remember praying with every push I took that Ava would prove everyone wrong and come into this crazy world screaming to the top of her lungs. Instead, the room was quiet, and my doctor handed her to me and told me how beautiful she was and how very sorry that he was. I wrapped her up and kept her skin close to mine while she was still warm from my womb. I kept asking her to breathe for me and let me see her eyes. I rubbed her chubby cheeks and kissed her forehead. After we had our moment together, I opened her blanket and memorized every little detail on her body so I wouldnt forget a thing. She looked just like her sister and alot like me, with her Daddy's nose. We kept her in the room with us for a while and some family came into say their goodbyes. I wasnt quite ready for that, but I was so tired, emotionally and physically. I gave her one last kiss and whispered to her just how special she was and how much I loved her. Even though Ava was only here with me for a short time, she helped make me who I am today. I am a stronger woman and a better mother. When we meet again, it will be such a sweet reunion.

7 Months

Its Ady again...I am 7 months old today! Can you believe it?!? Mommy and Daddy sure cant. Mommy said that it seems like yesterday I was in her belly. I tried to crawl yesterday and it was a success for about 2 scoots and then I got tired. Tired you say? You try hauling me around all day and see how you feel!! I think I'm a pretty cool baby if I say so myself. Mommy got me these cool shades and I just smile and laugh when she puts them on me. I eat just about everything you give me other than chicken noodle. I actually gagged when I ate that. Gross. My two bottom teeth are trying to come through and it doesn't matter what I chew on, they just aren't giving in. I. Want. To. Sleep. :) Speaking of, I think Im gonna take me a lil nap.

XOXO,
Ady